Delays & Answers To Prayers

Well Tyler would be enlisted right now in the U.S. Army but when he was filling out his paperwork while there at MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station) they asked if he's had ANY Emergency Room visits. Well, he had a couple of ER visits. One I will mention here and it was his chest pain he was having while taking his EMT class at the Firestation. Well, they never officially diagnosed him with anything but he hasn't had any problems since, not really anyway. We think it's a strained muscle in his shoulder and it's a bad one. His sister's tried working on it in the past and has had to put her ELBOW into it and it will not relax! Stubborn little bugger!! lol So I told Tyler I will work on it up until he leaves for Basic Training. Anyway, unlike what some people seem to think, it is NOT my fault he was having chest pain. (I was actually blamed TO MY FACE by one person and implied by a few more that it was my fault he was having chest pain! Can you believe the nerve of some people? Seriously!). Anyway, so his MUSCLE spasm, NOT caused by his wife but by his lifetime of construction work, caused an issue that was very painful for him and he went to the ER for it because he was with EMT's and Paramedics who insisted he go for chest pain. I think they were using him as an example to the other students in the class that as EMT's you should NEVER take chest pain lightly, no matter what you think it may be. It's just too risky! So away they whisked him to the ER. I'm just praying that this one little thing doesn't prevent him from being able to enlist! How stupid would that be? Seriously! But he has a really good recruiter who's willing to "bust his butt" as he puts it to get Tyler in.
Tyler isn't enlisted yet, unfortunately, but he will be this week one of these days. Not sure exactly which day. He might have to go to the MEPS thing all over again which means leaving here at 3pm in the afternoon on Wed and not getting home until 3pm the next day. Wow just 24 hours and us 3 girls really missed him!! And he might have to do it all over again.
He passed everything else so well, though, so having him repeat it again just seems a little excessive, but oh well!

Everything that's happened has been leading us up to this point. This point of Tyler enlisting in the Army. Things have just happened SO quickly and so smoothly! They say when things fall into place like this that it's right!

I've also been learning some interesting things about the Spirit. The Spirit can come ONE TIME and tell you when something is right, correct and true and then it doesn't need to hang around reminding you of that constantly. You have to have faith in that answer you got and cling to the memory, doing what you know is right that it lead you to. That's why converts can have an amazing experience, or a definite one, when they first discover the truth of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and once that initial feeling wears off and life continues and trials come as they always do that it's easy to forget that feeling and a little bit at a time we let things go that help remind us of that until it becomes too faint and eventually they lose it altogether and leave the church again. This happens to anybody actually, not just converts. It can happen to any member of the church.
Anyway, so when you receive that answer you should probably write down how you felt about it. After you get that answer COUNT on it that Satan/the Adversary is going to indefinitely try to discourage you from following through with what you know is right. He's going to depress you, scare you, intimidate you, give you doubts and discouragement and he will use any means necessary to derail you. He will use friends and family even! Of course these caring people do not realize they may be assisting in this negative way at all because they don't mean harm, but it is a fact that people are used quite regularly to discourage people from choosing the right. Even if they mean well.
If something is indefinitely correct or good or true the Adversary will try to stop you. If it was NOT right he will NOT have to try to stop you so you won't feel these negative feelings. He'll leave you alone! So sometimes this can cause great confusion.
For example, now this might seem like an absurd example, but it's an obvious one I can use, say you have a choice to take illegal drugs or not to take them. You decide that it's the right thing to do to take them. The Adversary is NOT going to give you feelings of doubt that you chose the right thing. He's not going to make you feel confusion, frustration, discouragement, depression or anxiety that choosing to take the drugs is the right thing or not. He will leave you alone! He knows he "has you" and will thus let you go ahead with your obviously WRONG AND BAD decision. BUT, when you have the Spirit of God with you, or the Light of Christ, or the Gift of the Holy Ghost, you will have a SURE KNOWLEDGE that it is wrong. It won't be confusing. It will be a FOR SURE STOPPING knowledge that it is wrong. It will be strong enough that you cannot ignore it inwardly. Outwardly you can pretend you didn't feel it and go ahead with your bad choice, and when you do this enough times eventually you stop feeling this absolute knowledge that something is wrong. You've actually desensitized yourself to the point of not feeling when this knowledge of what is right and wrong is no longer felt or recognized.
But, you can also choose to follow that knowledge and turn around and walk away without another thought about it!! It's so much easier to just follow that knowledge.
Now, say if you pray about it and feel that it's NOT right to take the illegal drugs, the Adversary will be aware of your decision. Do you think he'll leave you alone? Well, probably not unless he knows for sure that he has no chance of swaying you. He will make you doubt your decision, he'll plummet you with guilt and peer pressure, anxiety, discouragement. He'll annoy you so much that you begin to doubt your decision! That's when people cave. They give in to those feelings and they don't follow through with that initial answer they received of what was the correct choice.

I have to give this example, because I feel I must. I was hoping I wouldn't have to, but here it is anyway!
When Tyler and I were first getting to know each other I was still interested in another man I wanted to marry. I felt God approved of my decision to marry this other man, but he also told me that it was up to BOTH OF US. And this other man did not choose me. It hurt. But that's okay now. So I meet Tyler and start to get to know him. I feel something about him that different than with any other man I'd ever dated. I prayed about the man I was to marry and I had a dream OF TYLER! I dreamed of him before I really knew him. I was friends with his younger brother, Joe, and I thought Joe was such an awesome guy that I was always saying "Gosh if Joe just had an older brother!". And lo and behold he did!! I was never interested in Joe in "that way" hahaha thank goodness cuz he's my brother in law now!! I loved the qualities Joe had and since there was no attraction there at all for either of us I just was hoping there'd be another guy out there that I would be attracted to that would be like Joe in many ways. Well, then I met Tyler. I saw him on a Sunday sitting next to Joe at church after the night of my dream and I KNEW I'd found him. Only then I didn't know he was Joe's brother. It wasn't until I went to his house and saw their pictures on the wall that I knew they were brothers without a doubt. They just do not look like each other at all! Joe is a whitey with very blond hair and blue eyes. Tyler is a very stocky dark man with black hair and brownish-gold eyes. So I was thrilled when I found out they were brothers. When I finally got over that old boyfriend of mine the Spirit told me Tyler was the right one, or at least Heavenly Father approved of my choice as did my future children (he was the FIRST one that my future children approved of, actually, and I felt this very, very strongly). I prayed about him and I felt it was RIGHT. Just being with him and around him it was confirmed over and over again.
When the decision to get married was made that's when HELL literally was dragged in to stop us! It was INCREDIBLY HARD!!!!!
We did NOT have support. We actually had friends and family who fought against our union and would say and do anything to try to discourage us from being married. I cannot believe the extremes to which the Adversary went through to try to prevent this special union of ours. There were waves of doubt, discouragement, anxiety and sickness that hit both of us at random times and places, and almost ALWAYS when we were around specific people who did not approve it was VERY strong. It was incredibly difficult!!!! It was one of the most difficult decision either of us have ever had to make!
But we both knew it was correct!
On our wedding day I got up that morning and prayed again, telling the Lord that I was putting my entire faith and life into his hands in trusting that this was the correct decision and to bless me with peace and strength. Well, it washed over me and lasted the entire day of our wedding! The Adversary gave up when he knew I was not turning back and there was nothing he could do to ME to break it up.
Tyler also prayed and said "Stop me Lord if this is not right, but I feel it is" and even though he was literally shaking in his shoes of nervousness he felt it was right! After we were married we felt GOOD. We felt calm and peace and happiness and promise.
It has been difficult, being married (not to each other, just life has) but it has made us both grow in HUGE ways. We've been strengthened so much! And we've grown closer together than ever before! Even though there are some that still do not respect our Eternal Marriage and would throw parties to see this Eternal family torn apart, we are happy together, feel fulfilled, and have never, ever, ever felt like anything was missing. We feel complete and whole together.
My point here is that when something is RIGHT the Adversary will work to prevent it, using ANY means he finds necessary, even family and friends, to try to prevent the right thing from happening!!! And when it is wrong he leaves you alone! You get a distinct KNOWLEDGE that it is wrong and either you forget it or you can easily turn away from it once you make your choice and it's easy to let it go and forget about it.

You can tell when something's not right for you. Like if you're looking at a house to buy you KNOW when you walk into the right place! Or just a place to rent. As soon as you drive up or walk through that door you know if it's a yes or a no. That is when it's one of those DEFINITE things. There are cases where the choices we have don't matter as much and it's not necessary to feel a YES or a NO. But you know it when you feel either of these! It's only after the initial YES that you can receive discouraging thoughts and feelings and emotions that can drive you away from what you know is right.

Wow I just realized I really got into a tangent there!! hahaha sorry about that!! I guess I really felt impressed to share this tonight.

So, back to what's going on with Tyler and I!! haha.
We are being delayed in enlistment and also in where we will be living. We aren't sure if we'll be staying here or moving to government housing. I just don't want to have to start over in another ward and then in a few short months have Tyler GONE. Not only with the girls have their daddy GONE 24/7 for MONTHS (which will be EXTREMELY traumatic to them) but then they'll have to get used to new neighbors, new house, new ward, and even a new school!!!!! AAAAAAHHH!!!! I really hope we don't have to move there! Now, it's not a bad place, and it actually has THREE bedrooms instead of two like we have now, and it's all one level (thank you from my poor bad knees!) but yeah. It's government housing which means strict rules and also the price of the rent is determined from the gross income of the house. That can be bad and too expensive if Tyler is making too much. Being in the military it will be too much, especially if I have any hope of ever getting out of debt again! Thank goodness the military has sooooo many wonderful benefits! That will literally SAVE US.
So we are meeting with our bishop, HOPEFULLY, tomorrow and counseling with him about our options and see what our choices will end up being after that.
I am just really scared of being ALL ALONE after Tyler is gone. I hope that family will get closer to me and the girls, even if they'd rather not, especially for the girls and since I'll be so lonely being without my best friend in the entire world!!!

So, pray that things will continue to fall into place for us!! We need prayers for peace, comfort and guidance!!

Barack Obama's Heritage

Obama's Heritage [this article was pulled off the internet almost as soon as it appeared by Obama backers who are becoming more militant every day] An Atlas reader's well researched analysis of the Mansourian candidate. Pulls together nicely much I have been running for over 18 months. And interestingly enough, Raila <http://www.breakingnewskenya.com/2008/01/08/do-luos-really-follow-raila-lik e-sheep/> Odinga hardly speaks for all Luo depsite Obama's tacit support. AN IN-DEPTH VIEW OF THE OBAMA HERITAGE Will Burnett As the 2008 Presidential campaign progressed, bits and pieces of the information about Barack Obama that were being presented by the media did not fit the actual pattern of life of the potential first family. Thus, our curiosity caused us to do in-depth research and analysis on some of the facets of Obama's life. Our information was gathered from historical books and documents, other later-published sources, and from recent history in daily newspapers, both domestic and international. We feel this information should be known to every voter before the November election. In 1959/60, the first two airlifts of youth from Kenya were made to the United States. The purpose of the airlifts was to educate African youth so that they could then return to Kenya as leaders. Obama's father was one of the students, and shortly after his arrival in Hawaii he met Obama's mother. Obama was born in 1961. By birth Obama was automatically a member of the African Luo tribe. Shortly after the first airlifts, the African American Student Foundation was formed which has since sponsored educations for Luos including those claiming 'political asylum'. Obama's father and many of the young Africans who participated in the airlifts were radical Arab Muslim Luos. This was a turbulent period in Kenyan history, with the Luos in open rebellion against European colonial authority, engaging in terrorism and having Communist associations and close ties to Russia and China. Once in the United States, the Luo youth organized with the intention of affecting Kenyan politics from here. They also involved themselves in United States politics, which began to focus on African-American uprisings. Obama's father left his mother and him after two years to go to Harvard. It went beyond a desire to get an education, the Luos were working towards large political goals on the mainland. During the absence of Obama's father, Kenya had declared its independence; and a Luo, Jaramongi Oginga Odinga, reportedly Obama's uncle, had been elected Vice President of the new government. Obama's father went to work for the government when he returned to Kenya. However, Oginga Odinga's radical Muslim and communist ideas soon made inevitable a collision with Kenya's President Kenyatta. In 1965, Kenyatta assumed an anticommunist stance; and in 1966, Odinga's left wing was driven out of the party. Obama's father was involved, and Obama has simply said that a conflict with Kenyatta destroyed his father's career, failing to give the reason why. The Kenyan government then centralized with a single-party system, however the Luos continued to violently agitate. In 1978, Daniel arap Moi became Kenya's second President, and the Luos together with others attempted a coup in 1982. The assassination of a Luo in 1990, pressured Moi into allowing a multi-party election. The pre-election period was characterized by deadly ethnic violence between the Luo Muslims and the Christians. In 1992, the elections were held. Oginga Odinga ran for President, but he was defeated; and his son, Raila Odinga was elected to the Parliament. In the summer of 1992, Barack and his wife-to-be Michelle visited Kenya. Presumably Obama <http://atlasshrugs2000.typepad.com/atlas_shrugs/2008/06/odinga-and-obam.htm l> was campaigning for the Odingas, just as he later did in 2006 for Raila's run for the Presidency of Kenya. By the way, this was the same summer that Obama says he worked as a community organizer in Chicago. President Moi had resisted the 1992 election, saying that the Muslims did not deserve government representation because they were "behind the slave trade during which thousands of Africans were sold outside the continent." He was making reference to the fact that the Luos are Middle Eastern Arabs who moved to Sudan in the 1400s, and emigrated from there to many African nations. The Luo's primary economic activity was slave trading African blacks to the Arab lands. Reportedly, the practice still continues. Ironically, early Luo slave trade routes crossed to the Americas. In Africa, generally the Luo do not inter-marry with African blacks, although it has been reported that Obama has one African black ancestor in his father's side, making him about 6% African black, 44% Arab and 50% white. If not for her, Obama would be half-Arab and half-white. This means that he is not legally African-American. For those who missed it, some information is repeated here that is contained in "Where Has Obama Been?" In 1996, bin Laden issued his fatwa, or declaration of war against the United States, that urged the killing of Americans worldwide. By 1998, he bombed the United States Embassies in Kenya and Tanzania. It is not coincidence that he started in Kenya. He had lots of support there from the Luos. Also, it is not coincidence that bin Laden went to Sudan in 1992, after he was kicked out of Saudi Arabia. Sudan is the Luo homeland. There is that year of 1992 again, when Obama was in Kenya. Although he visited at least 4 other nations during his 2006 trip, not much is out there on his 1992 visit. And it is not coincidence that Obama was in the Middle East in college, and that he has long associations with terrorists, ETC. Overlooking the many coincidences in the Luo and Obama pasts is a dangerous kind of denial. Since the mid-1990s, bin Laden's al Qaeda has spread across Africa, incorporating tribal battles into it own jihad. As part of its thrust, al Qaeda is providing support to opposition leaders during elections who will agree to implement sharia law if elected. Raila Odinga, the same mentioned above who is reportedly Obama's first cousin, is one opposition leader who signed a memorandum of understanding to implement sharia law if elected in his run for President of Kenya in 2007. As mentioned above, during Obama's visit to Kenya in 2006, Obama campaigned for Odinga against our ally, the Kenyan government, all the while lecturing the Kenyan government on its corruption. The Kenyan government filed a formal complaint against Obama with the United States government, and called him "Odinga's stooge." When Odinga lost the election, the killings started, and over a thousand Christians were killed until he was taken into the Kenyan power structure as Prime Minister. Claiming election fraud and election killings have become classic jihad in Africa. We need to ask what Obama's full role was in the recent election in Kenya. Obama contacted Odinga frequently when the post-election revolution was going on and when terrorist killings slew the Christian voters supporting the other party. To go a step further, what has Obama's role been in African politics over the past 25 years? Obama has told us that he made at least two other trips to Kenya. We know that he was there during the campaign period for the 1992 elections, but we also need to ask what he was doing in Kenya during his trip in the 1980s. Similar events to those in Kenya recently happened in the Zimbabwe election. As in Kenya there is only a 10% Muslim population, so attacks were against Christians; in Zimbabwe, we saw a battle between Mugabe, representing a moderate Muslim government, and Tsvangirai, representing the hardliner radical Muslims. Tsvangirai lost the election against Mugabe, then he claimed election corruption and the killings started. This is jihad m.o., but there was a chilling twist to what happened in Zimbabwe. Raila Odinga interjected himself into the Zimbabwe situation; and as Mugabe struggled to fight off the radical opposition, Odinga and others painted him as the problem and demanded that he step down. Ultimately, Mugabe was forced to take Tsvangirai into the power structure. Also noteworthy is the fact that 2004 news reports said that Zimbabwe had become al Qaeda's newest hub, and news reports have placed Odinga in contact with opposition leadership in Zimbabwe since at least 2006. What we have is Odinga, with Obama's support and countenance, at the cutting edge of bin Laden's jihad in Africa. Odinga's and al Qaeda's names surface in common in terrorist activities in many African nations. Obama's trip to Kenya and 4 other African nations in 2006, were covered by the international press, with mention of side meetings with opposition leaders, and that Odinga was often by his side. Odinga has also visited Obama in the United States many times, and allegedly they have stayed in regular contact, with Obama shying from him only since feeling heat from the relationship in his own campaign for President of the United States. The political chaos and guerrilla activity in Africa over the past 10 years has been viewed by Africans as old tribal battles. In reality, they appear to be part of a takeover by Arab extremists who intend to establish Africa as an Islam nation. The list starting with Kenya and Zimbabwe, can be extended to Somalia, and so on throughout Africa. Obama is directly tied to what is happening in Africa. It is about controlling oil, and implementing sharia law. This overlays other serious matters, such as the affair known as Wantagate, which places Obama in the position of a conflict of interest with the United States, Africa and other global parties. More about that another time.. For now, the question needs to be asked, is Obama working in the best interest of the United States? In 2006 while campaigning for Odinga, he hadn't yet been elected to the Senate. Or has he been working in the interest of himself, his tribe and his pals? In light of the fact that Obama has taken many steps to hide and spin his ties to Islam and his activities in Kenya and at least 4 other countries in Africa, he is suspect. Most Americans are unaware of the extent of the Obama-Africa-Luo connections because the liberal media is protecting him at all costs to get him elected, even to the detriment of the citizens of the United States. And what has happened to our updated and expanded intelligence service? There are questions of all kinds surrounding Obama that would have already been scrutinized and reported upon with other politicians. The American public needs to be made aware of the movement of the global jihad in Africa, and Obama's and Odinga's ties to al Qaeda and other Muslim extremists there. There is much controversy about the birth certificate that challenges whether Obama was actually born in Hawaii. There have been reports that Obama may have been born in Kenya, when his mother visited there near the end of her pregnancy term. This issue is raised in a lawsuit filed by a past Pennsylvania Deputy Attorney General. Why aren't government agencies clarifying this accusation? There is also controversy about other documents from Obama's past. It is reported that he had an Indonesian passport, and used it to visit Pakistan in 1981; and that his application to law school states he had no other prior name, when actually the names Barry Dunham and Barry Soetoro appear on his earlier documents. Since Obama is running for President of the United States, isn't it reasonable that any questions regarding his identity are resolved before the election? Where do the massive amounts of Obama campaign contributions come from? Are the irregular donations that have been reported being investigated by the established agencies of government? Obama's association with Chicago mobsters are brushed off as ho-hum. As mentioned above, in the summer of 1992, yes, the same summer that he campaigned for the Odingas in Kenya, Obama worked as a community organizer in Chicago. A community organizer in Chicago is like a ward boss for recruiting blacks and for performing other go-fer errands for crime-controlled administration. This group is rife with corruption and should be investigated before the election. We should insist that police intelligence files are looked at to see what they have to say. And how about Obama's association with the Chicago black Muslims, and the Chicago school meals program? The radical Luos in Europe jokingly refer to themselves as the taliban there. England, Germany, France and other countries have also provided educations to the Luos. Raila Odinga was educated in East Germany. Odinga and Obama have both carried on in their fathers' footsteps. Obama said in one of his books that after a conflicted youth, he found himself after he came to know about his father. He changed his name from Barry Soetoro to Barack Hussein Obama, his father's name. His African family says that in 1980, he announced this name change in order to reassert his African heritage. This was a year before the reported visit to the Middle East on an Indonesian passport. Today we see that those early airlifted students started a push that has propelled the Luos a long way. Barack Obama and his cousin Raila Odinga have risen to the top of United States and African politics. Why haven't United States citizens been made aware of this and how it came about? This leads to just a few more questions. Mohamed El-Erian, a British-educated Egyptian financier and past member of the Harvard faculty, just moved from managing Harvard University's $35 billion endowment fund, and has arrived in Newport Beach, California, to manage PIMCO's $740 billion in assets. PIMCO is German owned. What is the relationship in this consortium? Did Obama receive school support from this group at Harvard? PIMCO, under El-Erian's management, is now in discussions with The New York Federal Reserve Bank to manage huge parts of the $700 billion bailout. Why not? UPDATE: For those who have not seen Michelle Obama's thesis, here are links to the complete document (if they are still up): Part 1: <http://www.politico.com/pdf/080222_MOPrincetonThesis_1-251.pdf>Part 2: <http://www.politico.com/pdf/080222_MOPrincetonThesis_26-501.pdf> Part 3:<http://www.politico.com/pdf/080222_MOPrincetonThesis_51-751.pdf>Part 4:<http://dyn.politico.com/pdf/080222_MOPrincetonThesis_76-981.pdf> (I dropped the wrong draft into the post and it was mentioned). "My experiences at Princeton have made me far more aware of my 'blackness' than ever before," the future Mrs. Obama wrote in her thesis introduction. "I have found that at Princeton, no matter how liberal and open-minded some of my white professors and classmates try to be toward me, I sometimes feel like a visitor on campus; as if I really don't belong. Regardless of the circumstances underwhich I interact with whites at Princeton, it often seems as if, to them, I will always be black first and a student second." Posted by Pamela Geller on Monday, October 13, 2008 at 01:33 AM in AtlasShrugs2000: Muslim in the White House?<http://atlasshrugs2000.typepad.com/atlas_shrugs/muslim_in_the_white_house> Link to this article as it appeared before being blackballed:<http://atlasshrugs2000.typepad.com/atlas_shrugs/2008/10/obamas-heritage.html>