Tyler's job is worse than I thought!!!!

So I know that I complained about Tyler's job in the last blog, and that I wrote very recently, but here I am again updating it even more after talking to Tyler today.
He got home in the very early hours of the morning and when I saw him today, this afternoon, he did NOT look happy at all! He looks miserable!! My poor Tyler!!!!

He told me today that not only do they cut the drive time out of his pay and the overtime hours out, but they expect him to go to the shop at 7:pm and he won't get paid until 9:pm!! So ANOTHER wasted 2 hours!!!
Also, he works with ex-cons, men on parole from prison, and those that are required to get tested for drugs regularly. He HATES it!! It is just too much for him. It's not a good place, especially for Tyler.
They all smoke all the time, like I said, but that has really made Tyler the most uncomfortable. It makes him physically sick. He HATES cigarette smoke and just cannot respect people who smoke like that. He thinks they're *sick*.

Then last night/this morning, he said it was just the ultimate. They speak so bad and are just the epitome of vulgar talking about sex and women's body parts in great and graphic detail and they're VERY VERY disrespectful. He hears this the entire time he's at work. And No he cannot put in head phones at his job. It's too dangerous. That and also every other word is the F word and that can get overly offensive.
Now he's tried to tune them out, but last night hit the worst. HIS BOSS brought porn to work!!!!! He brought it and ALL of them gathered around and were looking at it but Tyler. He kept away and was thoroughly disgusted. Tyler cannot respect a man who looks at that garbage and he was so offended by their disrespect and weakness and immoral behavior and speech that he had his boss sign his time card, loaded up and left.

Then his boss being a jerk called Tyler while Tyler was on his way home and said "where'd you go? I didn't dismiss you from work". Even though the time card was signed and the job was all done. I think he just didn't like that Tyler had left upset and wouldn't look at the porn with them.

Also, they stole two of his batteries!!! That was another 200.00 bucks down the drain!!!!!!!
Tyler is soooooooo mad and disappointed and disgusted.

TYLER TAKING THIS JOB AND WORKING HIS BUTT OFF SHOWS HIS LOVE FOR HIS FAMILY!!!!!!! HE'S DOING WHATEVER HE CAN TO TAKE CARE OF ALL OF US AND HE'S SACRIFICED SO MUCH AND ALL FOR NOTHING!!!!!!! I just hope and pray that our Heavenly Father sees Tyler's great efforts and loyalty and BLESSES HIM FOR IT with a decent job!! He DESERVES a good job!!! He's smart and a very hard worker, he has great work ethic.

So now I know why I wasn't super excited about this job. I couldn't feel really happy about it and I was SICK about it from the very beginning. Everyone kept telling me "don't stress about it. It'll work out" etc etc but I KNEW it was bad. This isn't on Tyler at all. I love Tyler so much and my respect for him just doubled! If that's possible ;). Tyler is a REAL MAN. He's a real man because HE works and doesn't make me do it, he's a real man because he does what it takes to take care of his family, and he's a real man ESPECIALLY because he stands up for what is right!!!!!!! He doesn't put up with this garbage and he's not going to any longer.
He's going to quit. And like always, I support him 100%.

I love to support my husband. Just like in the Proclamation to the World, Tyler and I support each other. I don't take over his job and he doesn't take over mine, that's not what it means. I support Tyler in all that he does trusting fully in him to do what is right because I know he will. Because Tyler keeps God's commandments to the best of his ability, and because I know his head is on straight, I trust him to always make the best choice. Of course he has flaws like we all do, but I choose not to dwell on them. Tyler knows that he has my full support and he's allowed complete freedom because he's his own man and he knows I respect that. I'm just so blessed to have married a man that continues to grow in leaps and bounds and WOW he's more of a man every day in my eyes.
I just keep praying that Heavenly Father will bless him with a decent job that he deserves.
I mean gosh, I can't even get a job and Tyler is way more qualified to get a better job than I can because of his experience.
If I had a car I'd get a part-time job. None of the businesses close to us that I could walk to are hiring. But you know, I feel that we're doing what we're supposed to be doing, even though many others doubt that. It's not up to other people what we do, it's between Tyler and I and the Lord, and I fully believe that we're doing what's right and the best we can.

Like Lacie going to public school. We both know it's RIGHT for her at this time. I don't know what the future holds, but it's the way Heavenly Father wants it right now. We live where he wants us right now, and we're doing the best we can and that's all Heavenly Father asks is that we do our best.
After all, he has told us that we should not run faster than we are able. I see too many people doing this and it's not healthy on many levels.

Okay now I'm rambling. I just have a lot to write right now. I have a lot in my mind. And a lot in my heart.
Soon I get to go walk and pick up my perfect little Lacie from school at her second day at school. She's such a good girl and I'm sure had a great time today. She was so excited to go she forgot to say Bye to me!! hahaha.

I love my little family with all my heart and they're everything to me. My entire world! And they're more important to me than school or a job or my own personal endeavors/desires and I feel extremely blessed to have them in my life.

I Am So Proud Of Him!!!!!

I am so proud of Tyler!!! He not only got straight A's in his psychology class at school but he got an A on his final, too! AND, today he got promoted to Journeyman and soon will be Project Manager!!!! Yay!!!
He's totally on Cloud 9 right now and has needed this for years & years & years.
He might get his own Gunther's truck in the next few weeks and possibly a raise. I'm so happy for him!!
So tell him congrats when you see him!
I love you Tyler!!!

Another Day Among Days Of Some Progress

Well right now Tyler is in Dallas, Texas, for a seminar given by Dani Johnson. I've listened to her off and on now for several weeks and bought some material of hers.I am really putting my faith in this woman. We've spent a lot already. I was supposed to go with Tyler to Dallas but two things happened: we couldn't get the money in our account fast enough to buy the plane tickets for the price we could afford and 2nd we could not find anybody to help watch our kids on three of the fours days we'd be gone. Thanks to my sister, Andrea, she would've been able to stay the nights and my brother, Glenn & his wife Andrea, would've had them all day Sunday. But Tyler's mom wouldn't take them on Saturday and our sister-in-law on Friday or Saturday and my mom on Monday. They had a couple things going on, but mostly I think it's that they didn't want to bother with it so much. A 3 and 1 year old are hard ages to watch sometimes. My 1 yr old especially is hard to watch! She gest into EVERYTHING. She's a busy little thing! She reminds me of her father in that way. Silently getting into mischeof (I know I can't spell!).Anyway, so here I sit, all alone at home. Right now the girls are with some friends of ours watching a movie and goofing around. It's 11:20pm!! But Sophie took a 5 hour nap today!! Yikes!! I hope this helps them sleep through the night because neither of them have been sleeping well for awhile now.Today I went to see a psychiatrist. YIKES I wasn't excited about that. I'm sitting there gabbing away and he wears his thoughts all over his face!! Oh my gosh. Yeah. It wasn't a miserable time but boy was I being read and judged. Oh my gosh.He diagnosed me with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (the Spirit told me I had this about a week ago already) and Depression. LOVELY. He even suspected a type of bi-polar.Oh my gosh I'm just a big mess. It sucks. He gave me a prescription for a cheap and good medication that should help calm my overly stressed out nerves and such. I hope I like it. I hope it's okay with my thyroid medication, which it probably is, but you know.And that brings me to my next thing: My Thyroid. Damned thing just doesn't want to work anymore!So it's a HYPO problem and I started medication not even two months ago. So far I can tell it's helping some. I'm losing a lot of hair though. I have been losing water weight and that's good. People say I'm looking better.I attribute to that to the GoYin I'm taking, though. Well, mostly anyway.It's done some amazing and neat and miraculous things for some people already. I've tried to take it consistently for 2 months now, but it's not been completely consistent. I can sure tell when I haven't taken it!! Tyler does great on it too, and so do my girls. It's such good stuff. And now that I'm talking about that I might as well mention here that in our OFFICIAL first week of being in GoYin (not on the TV show thank goodness) we made almost $1,000.00!! Yeah, great huh? But none since, dagnabbit. Of course that's only been like two weeks ago, but still.Tyler has been ON FIRE about it. I just wish others would BELIEVE us and catch the vision of it! Tyler wants this to be his way out of HAVING to work every day and living a better life. He is talking to so many people! I have been lazy in it, though. I actually have been lazy at EVERYTHING though! It's my depression. I seriously cannot help it. I'm too tired and losing interest in all sorts of things. IT SUCKS.And one of my friends let herself be convinced from her mother not to do GoYin. I'm so sad for her!! I was so excited for her to get somewhere and make a good life for her and her daughters! She reminded me of Dani Johnson herself in a lot of way. But what a sick and sad surprise. It broke my heart. She, of course, couldn't understand why it bothered me so much. I just hate seeing people giving up something that will change their lives for the better and forever.Just like when someone rejects the Gospel as I believe it and know it to be. It's a very sad day when someone says NO to something that will bring them better happiness, success, knowledge and peace in their lives.Oh I'm so tired! ack. I wish I was with Tyler! I NEEEDED this seminar!! I really hope Tyler's fire catches on to me. I really do!Okay, now to get off of this thing and see if I can clean up this messy office/toy room.And sit in front of the TV again and watch HGTV like usual.And pray that things start to turn for the better around here!